Log in

all power to handstitched homoerotica
It's been a helluva week. Work has been exhausting and there was a near-historic blizzard on Thursday/Friday. I feel sooooo drained and I have two more days of work before my day off, then it starts all over again on Friday. 

Aside from general exhaustion and the -0 Fahrenheit temperatures, I'm pretty damn happy. I love both of my jobs, I'm finally taking care of myself, I have great friends, and I feel more like an independent adult than I ever have. Oh, and I have a perfect kitty named Cordelia that just crawled on my lap like she owns it, which she does.

My arms and shoulders are super sore from working at Trader Joe's. It's a fantastic job that I want to hold onto for as long as I possibly can, but it is hardcore. I'm actually developing biceps which freaked me out when I first noticed them. 

One of my main motivators for working so much is traveling this year. I want to go to Louisville this May to visi agnespennyworth nd to Seattle in September for the Bumbershoot Festival. In order for that to happen I gotta bust my ass and save some money.

blah, enough of boring real life. I've started watching Friday Night Lights because I'm on a Connie Britton kick and I had never watched it. Holy shit, I really wish I had watched it in High School because it would have been a fandom, and I'm kinda over fandom-y things and fan fic now. I can't find good stuff and I can't stop editing it in my head as I read it. :( Anywho, MY GOD I LOVE FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS SO MUCH. I want to draw hearts around everybody in it. I just started season 2, I'm so glad there are 5 seasons, but I'm sure it won't be enough. 

If I have any fandom right now it's Connie Britton. I looove Nashville and I tore through American Horror Story (working my way through Asylum). I don't know what it is about her, clearly she is just magic. 

Ugh, I think I'm going to go take a nap. Cordy keeps putting her paw on my hand, I'm paying too much attention to the computer I guess. 
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: the west wing
all power to handstitched homoerotica
08 January 2013 @ 08:12 pm
I just cancelled automatic payments for my LJ paid account. I should have done it last year but I just put it off until it went through. I miss being excited about typing up an LJ post. I tweet and post stuff on facebook, but I don't write anything more substantial than a status update. I should at least write something on my tumblr, but I don't use tumblr much for anything but porn and gifs (as the tumblr gods intend). I'm glad I have this LJ account as a chronicle of my teenage years and various fandoms. I really want to start posting again or use my tumblr or just a regular ol' journal so I can have a record of my 20s; god knows I won't remember the details with all the pot and booze. 

Anywho, typical regrets about my habits aside, since I still have one month left of my paid account I'm going to make it a point to visit LJ once a day, check the f-list. I honestly have no idea who of you is still using LJ so yeaaah, that should be fun. 

This April will be my 10th year with this LJ account, 10 years! I can't believe I started it when I was 13.

I know I'm following a few of you on tumblr and twitter, but here's my URLs if we haven't crossed paths on other sites yet:



I bet I'll be using "gigglestheblood" when I'm elderly

OMG looking at my icons makes me 10000x more nostalgic than I thought possible. I love them all and I can remember when I uploaded them and used them the most. Aw, LJ meeeeemories. <3
Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic
all power to handstitched homoerotica
17 July 2012 @ 10:41 pm
Today I asked a friend of mine a question that would better suit a teenager, "Do your friends like me?" Her response was awesome and didn't hedge, "Some of them don't, they think you're loud."

I believe that "loud" in this case is a nicer way of putting "obnoxious".

It makes me curious as to how people actually see me. I like to think that I have interesting/funny things to say, and I'm not just some loud jackass babbling nonsense. I try to be quiet when I need to be, and I don't get mad at people who shush me when I really need to shut the fuck up, but it makes no sense to me to write someone off because of the volume of their voice. Don't the words behind the booming voice matter? Are your fragile fucking ear drums too sensitive to handle anything above a murmur? Because I gotta say, I can't hear shit most of the time and most people mumble.

But, I realized that usually, if someone thinks I'm obnoxious or simply to loud, they are usually dicks who I wouldn't want to talk to anyway. Usually, when I realize someone doesn't like me, that is a great weight off of my shoulders: one less person to have to try to make awkward conversation with.

Last week, a former professor pointedly ignored me at a screening of the National Theatre's Frankenstein at a movie theater in SLC, and I'm not surprised because he was my London professor and fuck yeah I was eager and loud when I was in London. So yeah, I know how I behaved and I know he probably thinks I'm crazy. But, you know what? He's kind of a pretentious dick and now I will be saved of ever having to talk to him awkwardly if I see him on campus/around town. That is fantastic. 

Also, I'm tired of defending my laugh. Many people tell me they love it, so I know it doesn't bother everybody, but the people who don't like can be such assholes. Fuck everybody who finds it too jarring; they can suck my big ol' labia. My laugh is a major part of my voice, my laugh is my presence. With it I express the utter joy, hilarity, and ridiculousness I see in the world every day, and I hope that one day I'll be an old lady cackling at something with the same amount of delight and joy. 

To quote the wonderful Amy Poehler: "I don't give a fuck if you like it!"
Current Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
all power to handstitched homoerotica
24 June 2011 @ 04:23 pm
Snagged from queer_theory  : Fifteen movies that influenced you and that you'll always cherish. List them in no more than 15 minutes.
1. Love and Death
2. A Hard Days Night
3. Bill and Ted's Bogus Journey
4. Tristram Shandy: A Cock and Bull Story
5. Shaun of the Dead
6. Hot Fuzz (Yes, both of them belong on this list because they influenced my life in different ways)
7. 24 Hour Party People
8. Trainspotting
9. The Comedians of Comedy
10. The Last Temptation of Christ
11. Life of Brian (I remembered the Jesus movies at the same time)
12. Dogma
13. The Royal Tenenbaums
14. High Fidelity
15. The Umbrellas of Cherbourg (It's not even that good! But I COULD NOT STOP WATCHING IT for like a month when I was 17. It's the aesthetic that I love. I was into pretty movies with little substance then.)
Tags: ,
Current Location: work
Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: the silence of the office, which involves a lot of whirring noises
all power to handstitched homoerotica
05 May 2011 @ 01:43 pm
I've been reading spoilers for Supernatural 6x20 and 6x22 and I've been freaking out, and I don't think I'll stop until the finale airs. God damnit, this show is going to stomp on my heart just like Angel did, isn't it? I am so stupid for watching a show full of BtVS/AtS alumni! They've all been trained by the master of angst, Joss!

Oh, also, I'm graduating with my BA, but there are more important things to think about right now!

Well, technically I'm not graduating until my photography assignments are turned in, I write a paper for my History class, and I take two classes in the summer, but I'm walking today and tomorrow so it feels like I'm graduating. Oh lord, I don't know how I'm going to get the motivation to do my summer courses. They're during the summer AND I'm not going back to school in the Fall, so I will not give a damn. Yay.

Today is Lavender Graduation! It's a little ceremony that the LGBTRC does every year. We just wear our regalia and get a rainbow tassel and a certificate. It's a little ceremony but it's the one that matters to me the most since most of my college social circle will be there, and the last few years would not have been as crazy/awesome without that Resource Center and the people I met there. Aw, just two and a half years ago I started volunteering there and I identified as "questioning". *pinches 19-year-old me's cheeks* I'm such a stereotype. I know that going from "questioning" to "bi" to "gay" is a pretty natural acceptance process, but it is SOOOOO cliche. 
Tomorrow I'm going to do my college's convocation for my Grandparents, because I wouldn't invite them to Lavender graduation. Grandma has basically said she would disown me if I were gay so I'll just let them go off of suspicions and rumors and I will never tell them. So yeah, tomorrow is the big convocation for Social and Behavioral Science and then after that I'll be done with all the ceremony and such for Graduation. Then it will just be a matter of finishing classes. And then, the abyss of the future!
Next week I'm going to Vegas because my friend Vangie is turning 21! Finally! We've been waiting for this basically since we met. Now, we have to wait a year until Spenst turns 21. Jesus, I seriously shouldn't have picked such young'uns to be my drinking buddies.
Current Location: work
Current Mood: boredbored
all power to handstitched homoerotica
I wrote up a Friday Five post on the Arch Editing blog. I wrote about five British comedies (well, one of them is Canadian), and they were really the first five that came to mind, but now I just want to watch most of them for the rest of the weekend.

We went to see Arcade Fire on Monday! That was the highlight of my week, really. It was in Orem and Haley, Jasie, and I went and I had sooooo much fun. I fucking love their concerts and all of their new songs sound so amazing live. I needed to go to an amazing concert, I'm so happy they FINALLY came back to Utah. I hate that their concerts are so short, though.

I went back to school and work this last week, and since I haven't worked for the last month this week I picked up a lot of hours. I'm only going to two classes but they're at the beginning and the end of the day so with classes and work I ended up having 12 hour days Monday through Thursday. I'm so fucking tired. This week has been cold and wet, but it could have been worse. Of course since I'm not leaving the house today it's the most beautiful day of the week.

Next week is the PCA/ACA conference! YAY! I finally get to geek out over my favorite shows with academic geeks. I haven't done shit to prepare for presenting my paper, so that's a bit worrying. I should get started on that.

I'm sorry, those last two paragraphs were super boring. That Friday Five post is way more interesting.
Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: Phoenix - 1901
all power to handstitched homoerotica
14 January 2011 @ 02:03 pm
So it's not mono! Apparently it was something bacterial, but not strep. My white blood cell count yesterday was 22,000! The normal count is 3,000-10,000. The nurse practitioner that I saw yesterday called me and she sounded so relieved when I said I was feeling better and that my fever was completely gone. If I start to get worse again I have to go straight to the ER. So I just have to keep an eye on things and take my meds.

And now that I don't have to worry about what awful thing is killing me, I can get back to worrying about school.

I have to read about 5 articles and 3 novels by next Thursday, and write responses for two of the novels.


I don't really have the energy to read them, but that really doesn't matter because I'm a slow reader so I can't do it all in two days or something. :/

Edit: So the last time I looked at the syllabi for my courses was two days ago when I was at the height of shittiness, so I misread and misremembered a bit. I actually just have to read one novel (Dorian Gray), selections from another novel, about 5 articles, and A Room of One's Own by next Thursday. Not as bad as I imagined.
Current Mood: relievedrelieved
Current Music: Futurama
all power to handstitched homoerotica
13 January 2011 @ 12:39 pm
So on the second day of the new semester I got really sick. I had an awful sore throat and I got physically exhausted pretty quickly so I went home early. It got worse the next day. I can barely swallow anything because my throat is so tender and sore. I have to brace myself for the pain everytime I swallow something. I also have a never ending headache and fever. I went to the Student Health Center today and it's not strep, and they tested for mono and it was negative, but it still might be mono. :( If it's mono I'll basically have to drop out of school this semester and finish next fall or spring, so I hope it's a virus that I'll get over next week.

I have an abcess in my throat (eeeeewwww) so I'm on antibiotics. I also have a steroid to decrease the swelling in my throat and I got some serious painkillers so I might be able to sleep for more than an hour or two.

I have never been in this much pain while sick, this is so awful. I'm also not allowed to go to school or work for the next week or so.
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: Top Chef
all power to handstitched homoerotica
22 September 2010 @ 10:14 am
So I'm at work and instead of studying with the free time I have this morning, I'm looking at blogs and listening to Donald Glover's album, Culdesac http://culdesac-album.com/. It's preeeetty freaking awesome and after listening to him on the Nerdist podcast, I've decided that I want to marry him. He'd totally be up for marrying a geeky girl who's mostly gay, right?
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Hero by Childish Gambino
all power to handstitched homoerotica
15 August 2010 @ 01:54 pm
Snagged from queer_theory


default oldest newest
saddest happiest angriest
cutest sexiest funniest
fave ship fave fandom fave animated
best quote best textless best stolen idea
use the most favorite

DO YOUR ICONS MAKE A STATEMENT: Yes, that I like to laugh. Choosing my saddest was easy, choosing my happiest and funniest icons was really difficult.
WHAT FANDOM DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF: It looks like it's a tie between Doctor Who and Strangers With Candy
AND THE SECOND MOST: Band of Brothers and The Beatles
ARE THEY ANY GOOD: Sometimes. The only ones I really like are the IT Crowd one up there and my animated Futurama one.
ANIMATED ICONS ARE: Awesome when done well.

Coding can be found here
Current Mood: okayokay
Current Music: Merlin